Rorschach

I stare at the paper
As blank as my mind
Waiting for something to happen
Something to come
Wait and wait
But nothing will come

My mind starts to wonder
As my eyes stay put
Staring at the paper
Still untouched and unharmed
White as the dead
Bright as the past
Shining in the light
Like a sun dying at least

The world gets dim
But the paper still shines
Bright as my mind
In the blackness of my thoughts
As the darkness grows
I still stare
The brightness of the paper
As blank as my mind

Then the light is gone
All left in dark
As the blindness falls over
The white paper is gone
No place to hide
Nowhere to run
As I fall into the dark
The blank paper is no more

As my mind comes back
I look at the paper
The paper I used to know
The paper that was once blank
But no more will it shine in the light
No more will it shine in the dark
For a black blot now spreads there
On the paper that once was white

As I look at the blot
It fills in the blank
Like tendrils of the dark
It spreads through the light
Till it can no more
It's power all gone
Till all is finished
The blank page is done

And as I look at the blot
Now spread on the blank
I see a face I know
The face of my thoughts

Someone on my own

They call me my mother's child
And my husband's lover
Know me by my blade's fairness
And my vengeance's hunger
But though I love my mother dearly
And feed my vengeance only barely
I wish they knew me as someone else
Something on my own

They know me as the angel's wrath
And the devil's bane
Call me the daybreak's star
And the moonlight's wish
But though death is nothing I fear
Even when darkness is always near
I whish they knew me as something else
Someone on my own

Inside

They take my presence as a challenge
Think I'm distant to be cold
But there's a fire in my heart
Burning everything to the ground
If what's in tells more than what's out
No wonder no one looks any deeper

They mix humility with kindness
And silence with fear
But there's a viper in my thoughts
Poison in every word
When eyes are the window to your soul
I don't wonder why none will look at mine

They take my cries as a joke
My solitude as peace
But there's a darkness in my heart
Nightmares in my mind
If the inside shapes your outside
No wonder this face is not my liking